As requested by Rachelle, the words to these songs, if you’re interested. Dates are the approximate time of writing.
These are all written by me unless otherwise stated.
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Procrastination (Life Is Short) (25/12/11)
I know you’ve heard it before that
we should all live like we’re dying
‘Cause when you think about it we are
It’s too easy to watch the time go by
and not do the things that we want to;
It’s too easy not even to try.
Can you honestly say that there’s nothing
you wish you could do that you might never get to -
Climb a mountain? Sail a sea?
Own a car, own a house, board a plane or fly one,
Run a marathon, read a book or write one?
Life is short, but have you thought
about how short it really is?
We save away, give up today
With the assumption we’ll be here
to spend the money later,
Put off the things we aim for;
We procrastinate our lives
And it’s not alright.
Do you fancy learning piano,
or learning to dance?
Playing soccer or hockey or
baking from scratch?
Do you wish you could be a designer
or a skydiver?
Start a business, start a band…
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Opportunity Cost (2011)
Honestly I’ve no idea where I’m going
I’ll pack my beach towel
just to get there and find it’s been snowing
And I feel so ill-equipped
I doubt I can handle it
Yeah I feel so ill-equipped to ever go anywhere.
Honestly I’ve no idea what I’m after
Decide to be serious
But I’ll miss the laughter
And I feel so blank sometimes
Wishing I felt alive
But I’ve just forgotten how to let myself smile.
And did anyone ever know all of the answers
to all of the questions that I’ve ever had?
Did anyone ever know all of the answers
Did anyone ever know? No.
We’re all a little lost;
It’s not that hard to believe
It’s always going to cost us
a little bit of freedom to be free.
Honestly I’ve no idea what’s expected of me
You tell me to knuckle down
but also to follow my dreams
And I can’t do it all at once
so nothing will be enough
I can’t do it all so I’ll just sit and watch.
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Headaches (2011)
What do you do, when nothing means anything?
How do you know when it all makes no sense?
When even the hospital’s too sick to function
and even the junk yards are bare?
When even the helpers are too sick to help you
and even the guides are as blind as the lost
When teardrops are bloodstains and words are confessions
and the sun is as cold as the frost.
When the pain and the headaches just can’t bear to leave you
but everything else seems to be fine by that
When the medicine’s empty and running is tempting,
but there’s no way to find a way back.
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Love Song To Books (20/09/11)
There’s so much love in you
Love that will continue
any time I open up your pages
And the greatest stories
will still be there for me
any time, no matter what my age is.
Oh I can’t remember
No it’s been forever
since I didn’t know quite where to find you
And the words just move me,
and the plots consume me
blocking out whatever’s on my mind, it’s true
It’s not easy to get inside my heart
so that’s the thing that sets the greatest books apart
No it’s not easy to get inside my heart
But you do.
You understand me like nobody else does
You make me feel like I’m falling in love
Every page that I turn, every plot twist I learn
takes me further
Towards a place where I feel understood
Where everything is meaningful
and grammar is good
So given the choice I’d take a novel any day
over the real world
You are my escape.
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Precious (2011)
I don’t often tell you how precious you are
But believe me you’re close to my heart
When I see you, it’s like I see me
but innocent, new and carefree.
So I’ll take your hand, and I’ll walk you on through
And hope you’ll keep loving me like I love you
I’ll keep you cool, and you’ll warm me up;
Together we’ll make sure we’re always enough.
You mean so much to me
More than I can say
I don’t know who I’d be
if you ever went away
I don’t tell you enough
But I love you so much
And I hope you know just how precious you are.
Well we’ll both grow up, and we’ll walk alone
But when we’re together we’ll always be home
You’ll make the same mistakes I’ve made before
and when you do, just come find me, I’ll open my door.
(I don’t tell you enough
I love you and how much
I hope you know just how precious you are.)
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Survival (2011)
Apparently there’s a problem
Apparently I’m not right
Apparently I’ve got to fix myself up now
And get back into the light.
Apparently it’s not normal
to feel unhappy all the time
Apparently they can fix you
if you just give them the sign
But I’m not going to open up
I don’t know what to say.
And apparently, it’s alright
to ask for peace and then to fight
Not to steal, but not to give,
not to love and not to live.
Apparently it’s just fine
to walk along that dotted line all your life;
It’s enough just to survive.
Apparently there’s no stigma
Apparently there’s no blame
Apparently there’s no difference between us;
we are all the same.
But I’m not going to open up
I still don’t know what to say.
(Apparently it’s just fine
to walk that empty dotted line all your life;it’s enough just to survive.)
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Gotta Stand On My Feet (2011)
Through the window sunlight leaks across the floor
but it doesn’t reach me where I lie
Eyes are shut, mind full of questions, just repeating the words
“Who on earth am I?”
I gotta pick myself up now
Stop putting myself down
Gotta stand on my feet if I
expect to get around.
My mind’s in little pieces
that I can’t access when I need them
I’ve got ambitions but if I don’t get up now
then there’s no way I will ever reach them.
It isn’t conscious, I’m not trying not to try
But deep down I know I don’t want to live through my whole life
feeling like the pressure that I’m carrying around
is gonna make me eat myself alive.
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Whirlwind (2011)
These days, the come and go like a whirlwind
These thoughts stand like mountains in my mind
And there’s no way out, and there’s no way under
No there’s no way ‘round
You got me
At my weakest point
My achilles heel
Blinded me with light,
showed me what to feel
At my weakest point
My achilles heel
And I’m moving on now
but I know that it was real
You got me.
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Open Your Eyes (Laura’s Song) (2009)
Lyrics written by Laura Masia.
Every song I hear is another melody I can’t write
Another song that I can’t sing
I know it’s easy for some poets but it’s always been difficult for me
to write my feelings down for everyone to see.
I’m wearing a mask of smiles
A tape of laughter plays from under my skin
I always shield people from the real me.
Knock down that wall
See through my shield
Learn who I really am
Can you see how I am incomplete?
Can you sense my fear?
Knock down that wall
See me for real
Learn who I really am
Can you see just what I need?
Just open your eyes, open your eyes.
I’m like an actor on a stage, convincing you of a story that
isn’t quite mine to tell
I will act and sing until my throat stings
as long as you believe my lie
I know it would be easy just to tell you how I feel
but I don’t think that you would feel the same.
Just another song, but not another lie
Just another jumble of words describing the truth
Isn’t it strange to learn after all this time
there’s a wall and you’re still on the other side?
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See You ‘Round
I’ll see you round
It won’t mean a thing
Cause there’s nothing going on
No need for right or wrong
I’ll just see you round.
Well I’ll see you round
But I won’t make a sound
Unless you speak first you
ain’t gonna hear a word
I’ll just see you round.
Sometimes made up stories get into my head
Pretend conversations replace what was really said
And I hold on to reason like it’s magic but in truth
it isn’t hard to see that I’m just getting over you.
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You’ll Go Your Way (09/09/10)
I guess you’ll go your way and I’ll go mine
It’s getting harder and harder remembering where the line
Where we used to meet in the middle used to be
The boundaries have been blown away and stretched beyond belief
And you’re going your way, yeah you’re going your way.
You’ll go your way, and I’ll go mine
And maybe somewhere down the track we’ll meet again and find
some things we didn’t finish off all that time ago
But it won’t be the same.
I guess I’ll go my way and you’ll go yours
Forgetting and trying to find what we’re living for
To think we used to be the same or even in reverse
I’d be lying if I tried to say that watching doesn’t hurt
when you’re going your way.
You’ll go your way, and I’ll go mine
Every special memory and secret left behind
I know that these things happen; that don’t make it easier
knowing you’ve forgotten everything we ever were.
You’ll go your way and I’ll go mine
A friendship built for years abandoned in a moment’s time
and if I ever speak to you again before you go
then god give me the strength to say the things you ought to know.
You’ll go your way and I’ll go mine
a friendship built for years abandoned in a moment’s time
and maybe somewhere down the track we’ll meet again and find
that I’ve come your way, and you’ve come mine.
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(I Can’t Do It) On My Own (18/10/10)
The sky has a habit of raining when I forget my umbrella
And everything happens when I can’t keep it all together
When will I stop expecting everything just to fall right into line?
Well I have a habit of taking more than I deserve
And I have a habit of making believe that I’m worth more than I’m worth
I am really next to nothing; the world wasn’t made for me.
I’m in tune with failure
and I sing it to myself
I don’t like to admit it
but I need somebody’s help
And even when I turn away
deep down I will always say
Please, don’t leave me alone
cause I can’t do it on my own.
Well things have a habit of meaning more to me than they should
And I have a knack for leaning away from what is good
I don’t know how you can forgive me, I’m too grateful for words.
(I am doomed to failure
and I bring it on myself.)
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Better (2010)
There’s only no hope when you stop hoping
There’s only no love when you don’t care
And if you run away from everyone
Don’t be surprised to find that no-one else is there.
There’s only no time when you stop counting
There’s only no help if you don’t call
There’ll be nothing left if you keep throwing it away
If you look for pain then pain in all you’ll ever find.
Cause we find what we look for,
get what we pay for
lose what we spoil
and want what we don’t have
you ever thought that
you could do better for yourself?
There’s only no trust when you stop trusting
You’re only alone when you shut yourself in
There are only no words if you stop listening
And you’ll never get anywhere unless you try.
You’re not alone at all
you should know that by now
And the sky’s not so far
so pick yourself back up now
If you don’t want to see
then you sure never will
But I think you’ll find that hope
is much harder to kill that you’d thought.
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Feels Like (2010)
Well I’ll sit and I’ll wonder
what is wrong with myself
And I’ll scream and I’ll cry
and I’ll wish I would die
But I’ve really got nothing to tell.
Well I’ll think of nothing
quite as long as I please
And I know there’s a point
but I’ll just toss a coin
to decide whether that’s what I need.
Feels like I’m the only one
Who feels the way that I do
And I know it’s not true,
I know people who do
But I still feel all by myself.
Well I really do wonder
Where I’m supposed to go
Because I have no means, no I only have dreams
that’ll vanish in big puffs of smoke.
And I know it’s not true, but if only you knew
you were leaving me all by myself
And she will have you, and I nothing to lose
except that which was already lost
You were already lost.
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When You’re Around (04/05/10)
I feel like writing something down
I feel like writing out a song
My head swirls with things to say
But they keep coming out wrong.
I don’t wanna be, don’t wanna be the way I’ve been.
I feel like playing music loud
I feel like screaming along
My heart swirls with things to do
but I keep doing them all wrong.
I don’t wanna feel, don’t wanna feel the way I do
I don’t wanna need anyone, I don’t wanna need you.
I’m only up against myself
I’m only letting myself down
Don’t wanna be anyone else,
just wanna be different now
I can’t help it and I hate the way it sounds:
I can’t keep my head quite straight when you’re around.
Feels like I’m hardly worth the air I breathe
when I think about it
I know it isn’t true, but I can’t get around it.
I don’t wanna feel, don’t wanna feel the way I do
I don’t wanna be nothing, but I feel like it compared to you.
When you’re around, can’t keep my head quite straight
When you’re around, feels like my breath is wasted
You’re around the only place I feel like I’m at home, and yet
When you’re around, I remember how I’m all alone.
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The Box (26/05/10)
I keep my body in a box
I need someone else to come and let me out
But while I long to see the sunlight,
it’s kind of comfortable in here.
I keep my mind lost out in space
I need someone with a telescope to come and find me
But while I long to be discovered,
I don’t mind it out here in the darkness.
And I’m begging you change me
I want to let you turn me inside out
Don’t let me hover in safety
Cause in the end the dark will pull me down.
I keep my heart in my piano
and the strings of my guitar
So I should give them both wholeheartedly to you
but I don’t think I’ve really managed it so far.
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The Loudest Quiet (15/05/10)
It’s been so long
since you’ve really said a word
And it’s been so long
since what I say to you has been heard.
We’re the same people
We’re just not the same kind of friends
And where there’s a story
there’ll always be a story that ends.
I miss you
and it hurts cause you’re here right beside me
Where did you go?
Our conversations
are filled with the loudest quiet
The temptation
is to say what we had once has died
Would we dare tell the truth?
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New Heart (26/04/10)
There’s a time in your life
when nothing seems to make sense,
when you’re hurting yourself and can’t seem to prevent
that every time you get up you fall down again.
It’s so hard to watch what you do to yourself
and I wish that I could give you some kind of help,
but the part that I play and the things that I say
I’m too small.
Everyone falls, everyone cries
Everyone lives and everyone dies
but the hope that I have will never subside
and I hope that you’ll see.
I have a new heart, and I have a new song
and it’s not thanks to me, and it’s all thanks to god
and I pray that you’ll see that it isn’t so wrong
take a chance and believe.
Whenever you’re down, I know how you feel
and I know that it’s dark, and I know that it’s real
but you can have a new start, you can have a new heart
and the scars can be healed.
Just open the door, he’ll do the rest
I have a new heart and now I’m the best that I’ve ever been.
Everyone hurts and everyone lies
Everyone fails, but everyone tries
And the hope that I have will never subside,
and I hope that you’ll see.
Everyone falls, everyone cries
Everyone lives and everyone dies
Everyone fails, but everyone tries
to find what to believe.
Sometimes we’re wrong, and sometimes we’re right
Sometimes we agree, and sometimes we fight
But the hope that we have will never subside
and I hope that you’ll see.
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Adventure (2010)
I hold onto words I shouldn’t have picked out
and I hold onto dreams while swimming in a pool of doubts
My heart beats fit to fly, my lungs are burning dry
and I wish I could pause the world and press rewind.
I wish that I had more to give, more conviction in the way I live
but opening the curtains makes me want to shut the blinds
Whenever I have more to say it’s better just to hide away
cause nothing could be worse than when I try to speak my mind.
I want to go on an adventure
I’m hoping it’ll make me someone better.
I keep looking for the perfect word, the perfect score
the perfect face, the perfect place, the perfect time.
And though I’ll never find the perfect key, the perfect rhyme
I still believe that, all in time, the perfect something will arrive.
My life is not some kind of movie
I’m not some kind of movie star
And all around are people saying all you need in life is
to be content with who you are.
I want to know who I’m supposed to be
I want to know if that’s enough
It seems the answers to the most important questions
are the ones that no-one has.
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In Control (25/02/10)
You know who I was tomorrow
You know who I’ll be yesterday
You hear every insult that I swallow
Your record is complete with every word that I don’t say.
You’re in control of everything I hope and dream
You’ve got a plan that I can count on ‘til the end
I don’t need to worry about the future,
Cause you know what’ll happen, who and why and where and when.
Take the wheel, I’ve been driving blind ‘til now
I can see, when I count on you to show me how
to breathe; take a deep breath in
clear my head and change my mind
It’s a relief to know you’re in control of life.
It’s hard to keep my mind on you and not
be swept away as the world spins round and round
But I pray that you’ll help me trust with all my heart
and no matter what life throws at me you’ll never let me down.
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Beside Me (01/03/10)
It’s like floating down a river
not knowing quite where it’ll take you
It’s like walking over thin ice
not knowing whether it’ll break beneath you.
It’s like driving down the longest road,
the destination somewhere you can’t go
And even when the world around you hurts
it’s the most important thing to know.
When life just seems to make no sense at all
each bad day better than the next
There’s really nothing I can do,
so I’ll just hold on tight to you.
You’ll always be here right beside me,
much more than a ghost to guide me
And if I’m lost and I’m afraid, and after all mistakes are made,
you will always come and find me.
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Something (Out Of Nothing) (2010)
I’ve got a couple of things in my head at the moment
one’s the world, and the other is you- what can I do?
And you’re so amazing and you’re everywhere,
and whenever I see you I just have to stop and stare
You hold me there.
And if there’s time to make this
the most fabulous mistake I’ll ever make
Then there’s still time to shake
this dream that we could make this
something, when it’s nothing.
And you’re so addictive, it’s just how you are
I can only last so long and only go so far, it’s true
before I come back to you.
And if I could grow wings and if I could fly
then there’d still be a lifetime between you and I
you’re too far, it’s just who you are.
You stand ten feet talland you will never fall to my height
or look in my eyes,
but if you look down you’ll see
what’s become of me
I don’t like it, but I can’t deny it.
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We’re The Best (Jan 2010)
We all want to feel like we’re something special
We all want to feel like we’re the best
And pushing each other down
is just how we get around
and we wonder why we’re so lonely.
No-one’s completely original;
we’re all made up of everyone that we know.
Every word that we say, every note that we play
has been done before.
And the world that revolves around you
can be falling down,
but there’s no way in hell that it’s your fault.
Tell me what’s under that skin you put on
is that who you really are?
Picking up pieces of everyone else
and pretending they’re yours.
And it wouldn’t be so bad
if you didn’t act like
no-one else could be good enough for you.
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Blue Car (17/12/09)
There’s a little blue car, that I wait for every morning
and I look in through the window, just to check it’s you inside
And I know that even though you should be somewhere far away
I can’t help but notice every blue car that goes by.
As I walk along the footpath, music in my ears
you’re there in every word of every song that I can hear
and every car that passes me, it’s silly but it’s true
that each car could be a blue car, and each blue car could be you.
You’ve got your hooks in me, you’re all that I can see
even when you’re not there, you keep me looking.
If I could drive away, I’d drive away so far
I’d steal you both away, you and your little blue car.
If I ever feel directionless, something draws my eye
it’s the colour of the sea and it’s the colour of the sky,
reminding me that I will never have to look too far
to find the special boy who drives that special little car.
At night your eyes are sleepy and the road is long and black
you didn’t see it coming for a second, from the back
it only takes a moment that we slip out of control
for life to take a refund and for death to take its toll
How far will we go?
There’s a little blue car I still wait for every morning
not sure I’ll ever see it, but at least I have to try
And I know that even though you’re left and gone so far away
I can’t help but notice every blue car that goes by.
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Violet (2009)
There’s violet in her eyes, there’s gold in her hair
there’s diamonds in her heart, no-one could ever get in there.
There’s violet on her eyelids when she sleeps at night
There’s silver all around her; she sheds her own light.
And even when the sun shines, she’ll always be this cold
And even when she feels young, she’ll always be this old.
The wind and the waves, they whisper her to sleep
Dived in alone, and went in far too deep.
If she had had a chance to be like everybody else
would she have taken it, or kept on being herself?
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From The Pointless To The Point (29/12/09)
You’re the best inspiration I’ve ever had,
yet I can’t seem to write down a word
It’s not that there’s nothing that I want to say-
perhaps I’m just scared to be heard.
And in the pointless waste I’m living,
you’re always there and you keep on forgiving.
I keep trying to speak, when I need just to listen
and live by your words day by day
I need to get used to holding you high
when I might want to just hide away.
And in truth I’m not sorry enough,
and I don’t think I ever could be
How could I be ashamed of your love
when you’re the one rescuing me?
I can say thankyou for this here piano
and these lungs that without you couldn’t breathe
But I need to show you just how much I owe you
for the life that you gave up for me.
Sing a song about a broken heart,
about the stop and start
of something that’ll never really end
We’ll pretend anything matters
in order to stay too busy to say
we’re all just ashamed of god.
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Part Of This (09/12/09)
I’m a friend, but only by association
and you’ve forgotten why I’m here at all
I’m a shadow in the conversation;
there, but only underfoot.
And if I dare speak, I’ll think again
and if I dare leave, then I’ll pretend
I’m a part of this at all, not just there to take the fall.
I’m the one who’s always there to up the numbers
I won’t hear until they need a spare
I’m the one who can be left behind and no-one
will ever notice I’m not there.
And if I dare scream, I’ll hold it back
And when the tears stream, remember that
I’m a part of this at all, even if I’m not the one they call.
I’m a frame around a picture;
only noticed if I don’t look right
I’m the ghost of someone boxed away
I look better out of sight.
And if the wind howls, I’ll let it blow
And if the tears fall, I’ll let them show
But only when I’m all alone
Cause I have nowhere else to go.
